Fever dreams occur when our brain becomes overheated and our unconscious takes over. Haunting images, in color or black and white, dance behind our eyelids creating vivid stories.
As I scramble to write down all I can remember from the dreams I experienced, I found power in recreating these stories through photography. Over the years I have kept a dream journal that exists as material to share things about myself I would never have otherwise.
At the center of this series there is a distinct commentary about identity, and traumas with personal and intrapersonal relationships. As a lesbian who is in a queer relationship, I find immense fear when going outside with my girlfriend as I feel we cannot express our love publicly without the anxiety that someone might hurt us. Outside of queer identity, I am haunted by personal traumas with past persons who have altered my view of life. These people have taught me, at a young age, that I will never amount to anything or be able to make them proud. In many ways, this project bites back against them using their words as power to fuel this body of work.
The individuals photographed in this body of work are my closest friends. All these images are created on set and in camera, showing the magic of collaboration with those you care about. These people have supported me and encouraged me to create through the most difficult of times. Having them narrate and act out my own fever dreams encourages me to not be afraid of, but to overcome and embody, the anxieties that plague me when I am awake.
Book is currently in Print. Available for purchase January 2024.